💔 From Panic to Collapse — Trying to Survive
"وأمّا من كان له معيشة العالم، ونظر أخاه محتاجاً، وأغلق أحشاءه عنه، فكيف تثبت محبّة اللّه فيه؟".
لكل حدا عم يقرأ، أنا بترجّاك تساعدني، المساعدة لو قد ما كانت قليلة رح تكون من خلالها عم تعطي حياة جديدة ليلّي محتاجها، ورح إذكرك بصلاتي تهالنعمة يلّي رح تساعدني فيها تتضاعف إلك. بتشكّركن من كل قلبي❤️
"If Anyone Has Material Possessions And Sees A Brother Or Sister In Need, But Has No Pity On Them, How Can The Love Of God Be In That Person?".
To whomever is reading this, I beg you for help. The help and no matter how little it is, will be a reason to save the life of the one receiving it, as I will mention you in my prayers so this help that you gave me multiplies. I thank you from the bottom of my heart❤️.
!!!!!URGENT PLEASE, JEAN IS IN NEED FOR URGENT HOSPITALIZATION AND LEGAL ASSISTANCE. FINANCIALS ARE TIGHT AND TILL DATE NO HELP WAS FOUND; HIS CASE IS GETTING WORSE DAY BY DAY. PLEASE.!!!!
Donations are accepted online or via Whish Money to 70169933, Thank You!
💔 I’m Struggling with Severe PTSD, Severe Panic Disorder and Severe MDD (Major Depressive Disorder) with Sever Suicidal Thoughts — Please Help Me Find a Way Out 💔
My name is Jean, I’m 33 years old, and for the first time in my life, I am writing these words with no strength left to hide behind a smile or pretend I'm okay.
For years, I’ve been suffering in silence — battling traumas, panic attacks, and a deep, persistent fear that often leaves me gasping for air, frozen in place, or even unconscious (Since 3 years old I got raped, sexually assaulted, harassed and beaten up, and with years of health deterioration, and mental health going downhill, and God is my witness: I couldn’t find any help anywhere, with no support at all, just me and my broker heart) . What started as moments of panic I tried to manage privately has now taken over my life.
Since January 2025, my condition has worsened. The panic attacks come daily, without warning. My heart races, I shake uncontrollably, I lose my ability to speak or move. I often pass out, completely unaware of my surroundings. I usually hide in the bathroom so my mother and brother don’t see me like this — I didn’t want them to worry.
But things have spiraled beyond what I can carry alone.
What Happened:
I worked as an insurance agent, collecting client payments and forwarding them to the two companies I work with: Solidarity Mutual Fund and Securite Assurance.
On December 7, 2024, while waiting in Baabda for a client, I had a panic attack. I was disoriented and overwhelmed. In those vulnerable minutes, I was robbed.
Again, on May 1, 2025, after undergoing thyroid tests and other medical procedures at St. Michel Medical Center in Dbayeh, I avoided the elevator due to anxiety and took the stairs. Halfway down, I had a sudden, violent panic attack. I lost consciousness on the staircase. Someone tried to help me — I saw a shadow — but by the time I came to and got to the street, I realized two envelopes containing insurance payments were missing. I broke down in public, completely helpless, and went home in tears, ashamed and scared.
The Diagnosis:
I finally opened up to my doctor on June 6, 2025, and told him everything. He prescribed Alprox 0.5mg to help with the episodes, and urged me to begin psychotherapy immediately.
On June 11, 2025, I began therapy with Dr. Tony Sawma, a clinical psychologist who now sees me weekly. After deep evaluation, I was diagnosed with:
-Severe PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder)
-Panic Disorder
-Suicidal Thoughts and Behaviors
These are not just labels. They mean I:
-Experience intense flashbacks and terrifying memories
-Avoid people, public spaces, and even daylight at times
-Can suddenly collapse, shake, cry, or become paralyzed by fear
-Live with a constant sense of danger, guilt, and shame
-Struggle with insomnia, digestive issues, and chronic exhaustion
-Often feel like I am not going to survive another week
And on August 4th 2025, I went to my psychiatrist Dr. Anthony Kassab, I told him everything happened to me with lots of tears and shaking, he put me on medication, and my heart was aching so much while I told him that I attempted suicide.
While I fight for my mental health, my financial crisis has exploded Since September 10th 2025 to this day on February 21, 2026, I’m unable to buy my medications, see my doctors or do anything in my life. And legally I was unable to continue working in Insurance until I pay my dues, I don’t have a life, I’m at home all the time, my panic attacks getting worse as I pass out immediately, and till date I had more than 16 suicidal attempts.
Why I’m Asking for Help:
Due to the robberies during my panic episodes, I fell behind on client payments. I tried to explain to the insurance companies. I asked for time.
-Solidarity Mutual Fund eventually put all my policies on hold no covers are given to the clients.
-Securite Assurance hired a lawyer, Edgard Hayeck, who is now pursuing legal action against me.
I owe:
-$6,200 to Securite Assurance
-$6,050 to Solidarity Mutual Fund
I’ve contacted several lawyers, but no one has responded. I don’t have the resources or mental strength to fight this battle alone anymore. That’s why I am writing this with shame, fear, and a final hope: that someone will see me, hear me, and help.
How You Can Help:
If you can support me with any amount, it will help me:
-Pay back these dues before legal action escalates
-Start my treatment journey.
-Buy my medication
-Focus on healing without the constant threat of collapse
I’m ready to share medical reports, receipts, or speak to any lawyer who is willing to help me legally. Please contact me at 81901751 if you can assist or guide me, as you can donate via whish Money App to my number 70169933, which is used for all my medical necessities.
Final Words:
I need urgent hospitalization for a Server MDD (Major-Depressive-Disorder) with Severe suicidal thoughts, my insurance stopped and it does not cover this case and I don't know how much it cost in Cash with treatments, and I can't afford. I’m not okay. I’m not stable. But I’m trying. Please, if you’ve ever known what it feels like to be completely lost, help me find a light in this darkness.
Ways of Help:
1-You can donate via Whish Money to my Number 70169933
2-You can donate via MoneyGram to Jean Toni Hatoum (Reference Number is Needed to Withdraw)
3-OMT, Western Union or any Money Transfer Service to Jean Toni Hatoum, ID can be shared (Reference is needed to withdraw).
4-Bank Transfer to below bank account set up to this fundraising only:
Account Holder Name: JEAN TONI HATOUM
IBAN: LB97005699840103500789790002
SWIFT Code: AUDBLBBX
Currency: USD Fresh
Address: Beirut-Jounieh Coastal Highway Bank Audi bldg., Naccash Dbayeh
Thank you for reading. And thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for any support you can offer.
With all my gratitude,
Jean Hatoum